It is amazing to think that just a year ago, i was 100% RAW and had metamorphisized into a beautiful butterfly with hot pink Angel Wings!  LOL

I can't believe I have made it 120 days, and I am 100% RAW, without cheating!!!! Today has been an interesting day to say the least! LOL My cravings for bread today were crazy, but it was mental, and I hadn't eaten in hours, so the smell of food sent me over the edge. I obviously should have eaten what was in my purse, but I was too busy looking at Crystals!!!!! I just wanted to let everyone know that it is sooooo much easier than it seems, in fact, it is the easiest thing I have ever really done, much easier than quitting all those "other" vices! LOL Shall I name them? NAAAAHHHH~ Blessings everyone! Saralise

Dearest Angels, I am tired of carrying this weight, sacrificing my own personal happiness for the sake of another. I do believe the time has come to release this burden back to it's rightful owner. I see now how being a victim has played into all of my relationships and has kept me from the truth, which is where my power lies. I am a Master, I know this. I chose to take on this pain for some reason, to help humanity. When I was younger, people would ask me why I was here, what I planned to do with my life, and my answer was always the same, "Heal the Planet". So now, it is all coming together, everything that I have experienced, every person I have known, it is all starting to make sense. After doing the cards last night, I realized that talking about it and sharing about it is falling on deaf ears and is not serving me. This is coming from a victim stance, and I am no longer willing to live as a victim. My energies need to be protected and guided by the higher energies, so that I may be of maximum service to humanity and to my sweet goddess Terra, whom I now know is one of my kin. I just cry when I think about the sacrifices that she has made. My beautiful sister, I apologize on behalf of mankind for the damage that humankind has done. I ask that you use me in whatever way necessary to serve your highest mission, which I believe to be your own ascension and the ascension of humankind, so that we may all live in Peace! I am shaking from the inside out as I write these words! I had no idea who I was, and now I see! I am utterly in awe of you and what you have chosen! If only I could hold you in my arms and cradle you with love, that would only be a fraction of how I feel right now! I am truly stunned by your commitment to your mission and can only say that I am truly honored that I am here with you! My humanity is over. I am no longer willing to be a human with no knowledge or understanding of their (my) mission. Today I join you along this path and journey forward to new levels of awareness that can serve the highest Divine Order that is taking place here on your skin. So I say to you my King (Amen), my love, take this pain and transmute it into something good, and may we come together in love and light to serve humanity together, and may your highest purpose be revealed to you.. And may I embrace my power and use it for the highest good of the goddess Terra, humanity and my own personal mission. May all the days of my life be blessed with love and light, absolute abundance and generosity from me to others to serve the highest good. May all the higher beings, of which I am their charge, be blessed and give forth any guidance that would serve their mission and may I receive it unconditionally, and in that open the hearts and minds of others, for the same purpose! The Spirit that dwells within me is truly grateful for this knowledge and wisdom, and asks that Harmony be restored to my human existence. Copyright 2007 Written by Saralise

Karmic Responsibility ~ Not for the Faint of Heart For those of you not familiar with this story, please read the archives Kingly Haste, Egypt, and The King Tut Exhibit before proceeding, it will make a lot more sense~ My Dearest Love, I don't know who I am without your pain I have been carrying your pain for thousands of years I don't know how to let it go We've repeated the same pattern for so many lives that I can't imagine life without you I am so afraid to let go, I don't want to lose you! But I know that if I don't let you have your pain I will never have the opportunity to live in peace to have my power and to possibly love you again I have been holding you back from your lessons and your life I release this pain the depth of this murderous burden back to its rightful owner I release it with love and light I don't know who I am without this pain but I am willing to embrace who I am now I give you your pain my love I am not doing this to hurt you I am doing this because I have to It is my responsibility I love you with every possible atom that is rightfully mine knowing that you can hear me can see me because we are One I wouldn't be surprised if you were crying right now I don't know if I will ever have the chance to love you again in physical form but I have to take that risk as it is what needs to be done I have died many times in my heart knowing that you are on this planet with me and I cannot touch you I have not been able to face this pain until now Who knew I would be doing this? Please take what's yours as I can't carry this burden one more second I buried your sternum in the streets of Thebes it is in a doorway, tucked in, off of an alley way I buried it there so that no one would ever know that you had been murdered I miss you I want you back Your life has so much meaning to me, not who you're with, or that you are who you are I could care less In fact, I have hesitated becoming who I am meant to be because I have been avoiding you But now that is impossible My mama made sure of that I don't know how to be in this world without you anymore I have done it for so long so many lifetimes I remember you, there, leaving me, tragically of course I saw this guy today, who was a reminder to me that I never have to be abandoned again I don't know if I can survive you again. My heart has broken a thousand times for you Thank God it hasn't happened in this life but that these are all just memories painful nonetheless Life just keeps going And my heart bleeds I have to let go so afraid to hurt you you have been hurt enough but if I hold on one more minute, I will change destiny forever So, my love I must do what needs to be done I give you your pain I give it to you and just trust that whatever comes will come and life will move on I am responsible for holding back your true soul's lessons I take full responsibility for what I have done and I don't even know how to say I am sorry I lost you and my best friend at the same time And now I have to let both of you go to embrace my true destiny My power is wrapped up in this experience I have to retrieve my power I can't live without it anymore I was so afraid of losing my best friend that I lost her I love her more than I can comprehend right now and all I know that I lost both of you at the same time I do hope we are able to come together at some point I can't imagine living without being at peace with all of us I need this to happen, I don't know how but I just know that I was extremely selfish by taking your heart away from you and by allowing her to be buried with you! I regret those actions that I took and I am sooooo sorry Please forgive me for all the lifetimes that I let you go and did not know what I had done! I ask also my best friend, that you please forgive me for letting you die, for being a victim and not fighting for your life! I now understand why I always felt like I was making it up to you And why I never felt worthy of your friendship You loved me the best way you could but I never quite felt it because I wasn't capable of receiving it I always felt guilty of your kindness I never felt deserving of your love or friendship I always felt like I didn't deserve you and I was always trying to prove my love for you Now I know why Someday maybe I will have the opportunity to share with you this information and we can be at peace I can't believe I chose any of this But of course I did This is my karma, no one else's! Please forgive me! Copyright 2007 Written by Saralise

This is the 30th official day that I have been 100% RAW. I don't know if you know what that means, but let me just explain! No animals No animal by-products No cooked food No sugar No white flour NOTHING!!!! I have been eating the most amazingly delicious foods that I have ever eaten. Now that my body is clean, I do not experience tiredness. I am also 30 pounds lighter! Literally! I wasn't expecting to lose so much weight, but I guess that is what needed to happen. I am just right now, my energy level is truly amazing, not to mention my psychic abilities just increased about 300%~ I am not kidding folks~ I just thought I would touch base with you and let you know I am still ALIVE~ Many blessings to all of you! Do the cleanse~

Oh My GAWD, I had the best day!!!!! I fasted today on water only. It was amazing, no blood sugar issues, a little hunger, but no big deal, just drank more water. In the past if I would have done that, I would have been shaky and sick. Ready to throw up, but today, none of that. I have officially lost 25 pounds! I wore a mini skirt to show off my legs, as noone has seen them in 5 years! LOL I couldn't believe how incredible I felt! I will be starting the Orange juice tomorrow to come off the fast, and I want to eat everything in sight, everything smells so amazing! I can smell the minutest smell coming from a vegetable, it is incredible! I cannot wait to start making RAW food, the food is just delicious! The only reason I know this is I used to eat a lot of raw food, and today, it all came back to me. I used to make raw salads every day with sprouts and edible flowers, etc. I am sooo happy I am doing this! Anyone care to join me for the 30 Day RAW FOOD CHALLENGE? Let me know! We can start Wednesday! Nighty nite~

Okay, so yesterday I felt like shit, I had 3 bouts of diarhhea and was just sick. So I decided to use my energy efficiently and just rest and read books. It was quite peaceful, something I usually reserve for the evening, but in my reading about ayurvedic practices, I came to some realizations about my imbalances that have been created within me. I realized that I had given up a lot of practices that I used to practice several years ago. And during that time, I was vibrant and healthy, had more energy than I had ever had, and was just glowing from ear to ear. I wrote a new song today. Just beautiful, if I must say so myself. It's called Treasure Map. I will share it with the Empowered by Poetry community soon. It is so gratifying to record music on my own program. It really feels good. Life gets so much better when you just listen. My friend on here just wrote me and said, "If the whole world stopped talking for 10 days, we might achieve global peace!" He is probably right! I am moved and stunned by the love that I have received from several people on here. It is like I broke through a barrier on this cleanse and the conversations on the emails that I am having are much deeper and more spirit-based. The people I am now connecting to are really just the most incredible spirits I have come across online. I tend to watch for awhile before investing myself fully in something. I am so glad I took the time to invest in Zaadz. It has become a home away from home, and I must continue the DANCE. Today, I decided to continue the cleanse until I feel ready to come off of it. I am not quite finished. I am listening to my guidance, my heart, my body, my intuition. It has been a long road, and I am no longer willing to live it in pain. This incarnation is but a blink of an eye. And since I don't plan on incarnating again, at least in this realm, I need to be mindful of my intentions and what I am here to do. I have spent the last couple of years not paying attention to my destiny and allowing my ego to give me other priorities. Those days are over. I need to focus my energies on the few things that are the most important to me and that's it. Blessings~

Feeling much better today. Have not felt better in this cleanse. I just recorded 3 Vocal Tracks tonight. I feel very relaxed, at ease, not worried about much. Have been able to think clearly today, which has been a feat for me as of late. Matthew and I made love for the first time in ages last night, and in the middle of it, I began to feel drained, so I just stopped. I am really listening to my body these days. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I need to be vigilant about listening to my inner wisdom. This 9 days has really taught me that. I haven't even been beating myself up as much as I normally, in the past, would have around stuff like that. I realize how important it is to keep the peace, and that when you love someone, sometimes it becomes an effort to be in truth, when your fear wants to speak. We got to the root of the problem and came up with a solution, and we both feel much better. It is usually just a matter of communicating. I am great at it, he's getting better. Anyway, enough judgment from me, I must get my beauty rest. ;)

Okay, so I was having a great day until my ex-boyfriend/housemate came home!!!!! I had a lot more energy today. I did sleep until 10:40am. I have been receiving a lot of intuitive information, clairaudience and clairvoyence. This morning I got some intuitive information that literally rocked my world. It usually does. Then, this evening, Matthew came in and proceeded to come at me with his fear and his idea of "the way it's gonna be". Completely disrespectful and unkind, only thinking of himself. I proceeded to fly off the handle, something I rarely do, and just let him have it. I proceeded to tell him how his thinking is not taking me and my son into consideration, but that he is only thinking of himself, out of fear, obviously. This conversation became an all out fight for several hours and at one point, I decided to take a walk to just cool off, as I had no interest in fighting whatsoever. It was ridiculous, the entire episode. So, I came back and said that I have no control over what he decides to do, but that I really wish that he would just do what he thought was the highest good for all concerned, and that he would at least ponder the idea of what God wanted, and not what his fear was creating. Some rash, harsh, fear-based decision to leave me high and dry. It has been a long year, to say the least, and I am doing this cleanse to literally save my life, as I was informed that there were strains of Epstein-Barr virus in my system, not to mention the daily psychic vampirism that I have been living with. Our souls are extremely connected. Tonight, he said that he has loved me through 1000's of lifetimes, and I can feel all of it. It hit me really hard and I just wept from the bottom of my soul. This has been the hardest decision that I have had to make, to let go of someone I love because of my destiny, and knowing what lies ahead. In other incarnations, I have not had that information, and so it has made it easier for me to live, but this time I chose to come back and so my journey has been extremely difficult in that I have had to experience the psychic phenomena as well as the real life situations that go along with being an evolved soul. I look at other people sometimes and think to myself, "They are so lucky, they can just live their lives." But then again, I know better. My liver hurts tonight. A deeper Detox I am sure. I don't want to go back to eating cooked food, I have been on such a high for the last several days, I see how I don't really need it now. I don't need protein to survive, so why would I subject myself to the torture of cooked meat. I haven't felt this energetic in years. My life as I know it is forever changed by this cleanse. I am no longer the woman I once was, the woman I was just 8 days ago is never going to be the same. This is the largest turning point in my life. I have always known what it would feel like to be 100% RAW, which tells me that I lived this way in previous incarnations, that it goes much deeper than this life, that this is a choice I have made in several incarnations, sometimes out of necessity, others out of choice. If you think about it, when Jesus (Whom I prefer to call Yeshua) produced the loaves and the fishes, they must have been raw, they all sat together and broke bread, fresh, sprouted bread that had fermented, not to mention, raw fish, that they ate fresh, as it has just been produced. It wasn't like they were in a gourmet restaurant. The only logical reason why people lived so long in the Bible, is because #1 - our bodies are designed to live forever, and #2 - they ate raw food, and #3 - their years were actually quarters or Mercury cycles, or some ephemeric cycle of sorts. That is the only thing that makes any sense to me as far as the bible goes. My recollection of the whole thing is still very vague, and I only get details that are important to this incarnation, at the moment, but what I know to be true, is that I am one with all of you, and the only way that I can justify any of the information that I am receiving is that I know that I am not alone, that there are other people out there that are having the same experiences that I am having, and they are writing books about it. I am grateful that we live in this day and age, where we are able to research all this stuff and make sense of it. Either that or go absolutely NUTS! LOL Long, drawn out, monologue, simply to say that I have no choice but to follow my heart and my intuition, which is telling me that my destiny is much bigger than I can see right now, and that I am piece of a very large life-changing puzzle in which more will be revealed over time. I am sure, on some level, this is my ego's way of justifying my existence on this plane, that I matter. We will see~

Okay, so in terms of food, today had to have been the hardest day in the history of master cleanses to be "not eating". ALL DAY, I had to explain myself! It was seriously annoying. But you know what? I FEEEL AAAMMMAAAZZZIINNNGGGG!!!! I danced, I swam, I watched Fireworks, I walked long distances, and my body feels great. Usually on a day like this, I am sooooo tired after even walking for a few blocks, isn't that crazy? Today, my legs felt light, there was no cramping or pain. Everyone else was complaining and I FELT GREAT! I was so happy when I would look around at how heavy everyone was, and just to think of all the bloating and puffiness tomorrow! I am so happy and grateful to be me today! I haven't felt like this in YEARS! I am NOT KIDDING! I feel great. Now off to bed, to get my Beauty REST!!! ;) BTW, did I mention, I recorded Three Songs yesterday?